Ok. Before I go rambling on and on about nothing, I would like to state what I would actually write here.
//Hot guys that I've a crush on always make me loose my words
//How the hell did i spend 3 thousand [rm] in 2 days??
//How I'm in such a rut right now
//How I'm in such a rut right now
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Facing someone who's handsome/pretty/cute has always rendered me to a molten liquid state.
I'll either
//mumble
//talk too fast for someone to easily understand me
//generally a *fail*
For instance, my favourite hang out place [even though it's fasting month xD] - Starbucks has these 2 very cute barista. One of them only has the night shift, and the other one has the day shift.
Should I were to order something whenever these two cute guys are manning the till, I'll always always always make a fool of myself.
Just like what happened to me 2 minutes ago.
I was so flushed and idiotic&clumsy-looking-on appearance, that for all intense and purposes; I might as well have drooled all over my chin and my shoulders for everyone to see.
I was sooooo stupid!
Anyway, to the dear chinese-looking F...... - the day shift barista whom I've had the hots for since I came back in July; should you be one of us, go on a date with me please (-.-)
The same invitation also applies to the night shift only barista - the dearest cutiey I've seen and snapped below ;D
When I first saw him [the one immediately above], my radar was hinting me a positive light in the - "he's definitely one of us", but after seeing him a lot more after that, I kinda doubt it. Not really sure though.
Picture above was snapped by my dearie lil sis in between helpings of sushis. ;P
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How I spent nearly 3grand in 2 days?
not really that much to tell except I may need a little help in curbing my spending :(
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How am I in a rut?
I guess relationship wise is the most obvious one. I've never had a really serious relationship. I'm way to scared to open myself.
I'm super seriously hating myself for that.
While my friends and my lil sis have been aggressively intervening regarding this issue, I still find that I'm unable to take that sacred plunge.
I've always told myself that the reason that I've been avoiding that is due to the fact that I've always wanted to build a relationship with someone that I can connect mentally. Plus, it must be in an environment where I would deem that I can build a long term relationship out of it.
Truth be told though, it all seems like excuses......and a lame one at that.... :( :( :(
Till I find my muse.....
